He's all I got....and I love him!!

WARNING: Extremely cheesy, but very true.

I feel so lucky to have such a wonderful husband.  When I sit down and think about it, I got really lucky.  He is everything I've ever dreamed of in a husband and more.  I know this is probably making most of you gag, or roll your eyes, but I just had to write it because sometimes I just get overwhelmed with appreciation for him.  He is patient, fun and such a hard worker.  He is a magnet to kids, they share a special interest I guess, PLAYING.  He supports all that I do (or don't do) for that matter.  He makes me feel so loved.  With out him I would be lost.  I love you babe!!

The things I missed and so appreciate!

Here are just a few of the things I took for granted and now realize more than ever how much I appreciate and love them.

I never thought I would want to cook again when I was sick, but now I remember how much I love cooking and eating delicious meals.

Missy, a forever friend since fifth grade, and I went to Golden Spoon while I was in California.  She is due any day now with her second baby girl.

Friends in Arizona-every sunday we get together for game night.  This was actually a tuesday night, but same group.

Getting ready for and actually going to church is something I've never been more grateful to be able to do.  I was so excited to go back on sunday I actually made Zac match with me.  He was a good sport.

And last, but not least, just being able to smile again, to laugh and enjoy everyday I am not in the hospital.  I never thought I would get through the past couple of weeks, but with the help of family and friends I am still here and surviving each day.  As time goes by I realize that there is a plan for Zac and I and that one day we will become parents.  

Finally, a vacation and really bad news.

Zac and I drove down to California after being released from the hospital for hopefully the last time.  I was pregnant through all this trauma that's been going on the past couple of months and ended up miscarrying last Wednesday. I got an infection that caused me to go into early labor that night and then I had to have a D&C the next day.  After all Zac and I had been through this summer this was definitely shocking for us both.  It was an unfortunate ending to a long 14 weeks.  We decided we needed some time away from Arizona and decided to visit my family for a while.  Zac had to drive back yesterday to get ready to go back to school on Tuesday.  I am going to stay here until this Sunday and then fly back.  I am hoping that being around family will take my mind off of all that's gone on.  It's still really hard for me to think about, but I know that one day Zac and I will be able to become parents.  Hopefully in the future I will be able to see all the lessons we learned through this experience.  For now I know that we just have to be patient and things will work out. 

 

We have had so many friends call, bring dinner, and visit and we feel so blessed to have you all.  Zac and I have certainly grown closer as a couple through all of this, but we could have never got through it with out all of your prayers.  Thank you for being there for us friends and family.  We love you all!!